one month

june seems like such a blur to me.

it's already been a little over a month since my father-in-law passed away.

i feel like he has been in arizona this whole time. 

anytime we do something new to the house, or just anything exciting goes on in our lives, i reach for my phone to text my father-in-law. 

when nick and i got the keys to our house, i sent a picture of nick opening the door to my mother-in-law. nick instantly thought, "oh crap, we forgot to tell dad!" 

these little reminders that he isn't here are painful. 

but...

he is with us.

i constantly remind myself what my 8 year old nephew said to me the day of his funeral "you know what's neat? we'll always have grandpa with us, in our hearts."

i am so grateful for my eternal family and for the gospel. it has made this process easier for me.

there isn't a day that goes by that i don't think of my father-in-law. i miss him very much, but it is always so great to think about all the fun times i had with him.

nick and i have definitely felt all the love and support we have had from everyone over the past month, we love and appreciate you all so much.